Deserving

Today's discussion on A Practical Wedding is stirring things up for me.  It's about whether we DESERVE to be a bride.  While I've moved past the bridal thing (thank God), I still get stuck on whether I deserve things -- deserve to be the center of attention, deserve an excellent career requiring ambition and drive, deserve to take public risks long before a reward is visible, deserve to speak truth to power and stand up for myself.  One commenter hit the nail on the head and said that the discussion is really about how women manage shame.  Hmm, very interesting.  Shame is such a strong word. 

I'm sick of walking on eggshells.  I'm sick of being so muddled with insecurities that I can't even discern what my dreams are for myself (contemplating a career move but - to what? how? and how do you know that's what you really want?). 


Mystery readers, have you always felt you deserved XYZ, or is it a struggle?  Do you think it's related to shame? 

Signing On

Greetings, internetties! Here we have my third or fourth try at starting a blog. I suspect I am getting bolder, so I may have enough guts + things to say to stick with this one.

After months of contemplating a professional blog oriented to an online business I may start, I realized that the only type of blog I am passionate about is an embarassingly personal mish mash of stories and opinions and sharing. And I want a way to extend the amazing community on my favorite blog, A Practical Wedding, by leaving a link with my frequent comments (welcome APW readers!).

Let the storytelling commence!