Wednesday, May 16, 2012
change is weird
The feeling in the air is so heavy. Or maybe I'm just imagining that. Yesterday I got the job and called my husband crying, so he couldn't even tell if I was happy or sad. I can't tell if I'm happy or sad. I'm so worried about what if it seems like I'm screwing over my current situation by leaving. So weird to tell people. I don't know how much I should say on a blog. Suffice it to say that right now things feel heavy and complicated. At least yesterday's pregnancy test was negative. But wait, maybe I wanted it to be positive? Oh man I'm so confused.